when i see my face.....

when you look in the mirror, what do you see? some one gorgeous, someone confident, someone beautiful.

i see a monster.

(its probably because Brian's behind me. hah, im joking)

Mornings when i wake up finding a big fat, red, glowing pimple right on my cheek can really screw up my whole day.
you probably could play 'connect the zit' and find a shape of an.. elephant! .___.

there's mornings when i wake up and think "not bad" but you know what, i want to be MORE than not bad.
im not striving for perfection. but you know.. im striving for NORMAL.

this is probably how it goes every morning : hmmm, i could lose some fats here. ohmygosh! why my leg so shortt :( garhhhh, another pimple. crap, should i shape my eyebrows? ok, today is a bad hairday. ==

wanna know something? i hate looking at my reflection.
i do it in my room la, but when im in a public toilet or places with mirror, i try not to look.
the fear of shattering the image i have of me hits me hard every time I’m near a mirror.

you'd probably think "oh, this is what happen to every teenage girl, the self conscious stuff"
maybe it does happen to every teenager. But how can the other girls fake it so well then?
how can they like EVERYTHING about themselves. when i only like my.. eyes. o.o

In facebook, when people say "oh, you're so pretty" to a not-so-pretty-person i don't even think they meant it. they're probably saying that out of curtesy. and then there's that sampat girls who would say "no, you're prettier" (oh c'mon! if you don't mean it, don't say it.) and the battle of who's prettier start. and that sampat girl would feel pretty, cause the other girls say she pretty mahh! and then i don't know how la. she becomes prettier. AND THEN! i like her pictures 'cause she pretty mahh .______. hmmm.

LOL. i'm not so sure of where im going with this. but yeahhh.

there's a saying that says : its the personality that attracts the crowd

oh really? 'cause you know what? Guys are all judgmental. they see you and if you look HOT, they would want to be your friend, and probably make you their GF, but if you're not, you have to be funny or smart or good at sports to even attract them to talk to you. I mean, girls are not so different, okay, so both females and males are judgmental. oh mannnnnnn.

what would happen to all the ugly people like me? :'(

i shall find a cave to live in now. .__.
KL got caves ah?



2.4.2011