It's a Journey
time for a little realization
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
The Party
spent time with SMK SEAFIELD'S CF members yesterday.
at first i thought it was going to be awkward and stuff.
But i had a lot of FUN!
and i'm glad i was there.
i miss them already :')
haha. sometimes, i just wanna go back, you know? their a bunch of great people. and sometimes i just feel left out. dang, i wish i have friends like these i can see everyday. those that are not afraid to be silly or goofy :D those that know how to have a great time.
these type of friends are hard to find.
thank God, i've met them :)
not forgetting my other friends. their great too. don't get me wrong. i'm just a really lucky girl i guess ;)
x
Monday, November 28, 2011
Almost a year already
i've been really really happy this few days :D
so, i've just came back from 2 camps. actually i didn't "JUST" came back.
heh, its been a week :P and i'm starting to miss going to camps. i feel so lifeless and bored these days.. :) but im kinda happy that i have time now.. for someone. heeee.
so here's the first camp. it's in STM, seremban. date : 14th november to 18th november.
can you spot me? :D
there's only 4 pictures, i know. but thats because our suppose-to-be-camera-m
an was the camp commander ! :D so.. too bad people.
and yesh, be jealous, cause we had an awesome time!
so.. you know what to do right :D GO FOR NEXT YEAR"S CAMP! seriously!
second camp. this is at the OUTBAC outdoor camp, Seremban. date : 21st november to 23rd november
BUT I MADE IT THROUGH.! whoopeeedoo.
WARNING: i look disgusting, cause of the sweats and stuff. (one of the reason why i would not upload so many pic) teehee.
we had a campfire too, and i tell you. it was AWESOME. there were fire dancing, baby
Saturday, November 12, 2011
One DOWN
assalamulaikum :)
hello you weird creatures.!
so school ended yesterday
whoopeedoo.
i dont feel that.. excited
or maybe i am. but i just dont know how to express it :)
so.. here's some captured moment before the no-more-school-bell officially rung :
my favourite cows :')
ignore my crazy look :)
i wouldnt be seeing Valerie till next year. nawww, the horror.
hahha, im so lazy to upload! >:(
so, four is enough right.
come on.. its FOUR! :)
garh, i can't believe a year just past!
it feels like i just entered the school for the first time yesterday! :'(
so cliche, i know.
im. getting. older.
nawww, i can feel ze wrinkles forming! D:
omg, shut up clarissa.
byes now :)
Friday, September 16, 2011
wanted
so to update cha'
i went to a vineyard.
say whaaaat? yesh, i didnt know grapes can grow in Malaysia too.
where? i have no idea cause;
1. my snese of direction sucks
2. i slept throughout the whole ride
3. its a weird named place :)
but here's daddy with some grapes! wooohooo.
after that we went to the zoo.
ZOO NEGARA BAYBEHHH!
hahah, childish, but you know what,
i kinda had fun
ohhhh, i like bart the sealion
:D
i dont care if he's fattt or if he chows down fishes without chewing
HE. IS. ADORABLE. :))
AHHHH, so cute righttt :D
thats all, babes. bye! :D
Saturday, August 13, 2011
when there's thunder...
how's everybody doing?
:D!
i know i know, i've left my blog to diee... hahha :D
im here now, aren't i ?
so.. little updates about my life.
1. sucked at BK quiz
2. not happy with a certain teacher
3. ditched subang rally
4. had an awesome time at Kristy's place
5. haven't met anyone new ...
6. made an effort to talk to church mates
7. trying to figure out what i am doing in Science class
8. my phone's twitter ish stooopid
9. addicted to hell's kitchen these days
10. he's not into me. but another he is.
wooohooo :D that about it.
life's been great, seriously .___.
nahh, its not great. it dont suck. but its not paradise either.
that leaves me questioning myself.
why am i here? why me? and not.... someone else?
i feel so discourage most morning. EXCEPT tuesdays. and the weekends.
His words discourages me.
making me feel like an insignificant being.
making feel as though im not good enough.
making me feel as though it was just because of luck.
i'm still trying to find a way to block him out of my life.
i don't hate him though.
in fact, i just think that all his meaness is just an act.
MAY GOD BLESS HIM.
bye, now :)
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Monday, June 6, 2011
Singularity
Sunday, June 5, 2011
dayumm :P
i've been really really boring these few day/weeks/months/years.
and did you know my blog is really really...
there's NO pictures! mygosh :)
so now, every post will have at least one picture!
its a law, i just created.
yeah like this one ^ :)
i know its kinda random and like it doesnt fit in the text, but....
LIVE WITH IT.
OK?
Thursday, June 2, 2011
jeng
PICTURES.
heheh, so this post is to show you. i haven't lost my SS-ing moments ;)
okayyyyyyy. im too lazy to upload anymore. byes :D
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
i feel like whipping my hair back and forth
GOD uses a nobody, outcasts, losers.
He notices those that people normally wouldn't.
but somehow.. nobody wants to be a nobody.
everyone somehow wants to be "somebody"
i know, because i always try to be someone.
the funny one, the loud one, the popular one, the.... you get my point.
IMPACT camp 2011 has given me a new perspective. life is so short, and when it ends, everything doesn't matter. sometimes we use "life is short" as an excuse to do something wacky. drink, have sex, the list goes on.
i want to be used.. by GOD. not you.
Pastor Les Lee said that GOD would use those that would lay low.
those that know how to duck.
so that all glory goes to GOD.
I. REALISE. I. DON'T. KNOW. HOW. TO. NOT. TAKE. THE. CREDIT.
everyone wants to be acknowledge, right?
and somehow, getting the attention is kind of nice.
sighhh.
GOD, if you were to use anyone...
WOULD YOU USE ME?
sorry, for my very "uhhhh" entry.
i can't help it.
i just felt like i had to write it down, i don't normally write down my thoughts.
so... maybe it's a sign from GOD? ;)
who knows?
so i am back in KL!
hurrah hurrah.
i'm trying to think of things to do so that i wouldn't end up rotting and gaining fats.
but somehow, my mind goes blank.
okay. let me tell you about the outings i've been to.
it might bore you. so yeahhh.
if you wanna stop here. go ahead.
the 'x' button is not that far you know.
.
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.
.
.
.
.
.
yay! you are still reading.
you sure you wanna stay?
.
.
.
.
okay, so here goes.
i went to tanjung karang, please don't ask me where is it. cause i seriously have no idea!
we went to the pewter factory, then to the village place where we caught eels, chop sugar canes, play with 'gasings', make 'ketupat' (i hated this part), and pound grains so we can get the rice :)then we went and see fireflies, harvest paddy, yeahh i think thats about all
its not really in sequence. i wanted to do it in sequence but then... i got mixed up, and i am too lazy to keep hitting the backspace button :)
so yeah, it was really fun. next year's form 4 please go.
don't go wimpy and say "but its so dirty" or " i'll be homesick"
MANNNN UPPPP!
its an experience. and a great one infact ;)
THEN I WENT TO PEACEHAVEN.
peacehaven.. just by knowing that that's the venue, you just know that its a so so camp.
not because of the committee or anything. but its because of the rules they have there. its kinda strict. so i think.. if that's the venue again for next year, i am not going! heheh :p
yeahhh, i think this is it.. im getting bored of myself. so i'm gonna go watch another movie or eat... im not sure which one to pick o.o :O
au revoir.
He notices those that people normally wouldn't.
but somehow.. nobody wants to be a nobody.
everyone somehow wants to be "somebody"
i know, because i always try to be someone.
the funny one, the loud one, the popular one, the.... you get my point.
IMPACT camp 2011 has given me a new perspective. life is so short, and when it ends, everything doesn't matter. sometimes we use "life is short" as an excuse to do something wacky. drink, have sex, the list goes on.
i want to be used.. by GOD. not you.
Pastor Les Lee said that GOD would use those that would lay low.
those that know how to duck.
so that all glory goes to GOD.
I. REALISE. I. DON'T. KNOW. HOW. TO. NOT. TAKE. THE. CREDIT.
everyone wants to be acknowledge, right?
and somehow, getting the attention is kind of nice.
sighhh.
GOD, if you were to use anyone...
WOULD YOU USE ME?
sorry, for my very "uhhhh" entry.
i can't help it.
i just felt like i had to write it down, i don't normally write down my thoughts.
so... maybe it's a sign from GOD? ;)
who knows?
so i am back in KL!
hurrah hurrah.
i'm trying to think of things to do so that i wouldn't end up rotting and gaining fats.
but somehow, my mind goes blank.
okay. let me tell you about the outings i've been to.
it might bore you. so yeahhh.
if you wanna stop here. go ahead.
the 'x' button is not that far you know.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
yay! you are still reading.
you sure you wanna stay?
.
.
.
.
okay, so here goes.
i went to tanjung karang, please don't ask me where is it. cause i seriously have no idea!
we went to the pewter factory, then to the village place where we caught eels, chop sugar canes, play with 'gasings', make 'ketupat' (i hated this part), and pound grains so we can get the rice :)then we went and see fireflies, harvest paddy, yeahh i think thats about all
its not really in sequence. i wanted to do it in sequence but then... i got mixed up, and i am too lazy to keep hitting the backspace button :)
so yeah, it was really fun. next year's form 4 please go.
don't go wimpy and say "but its so dirty" or " i'll be homesick"
MANNNN UPPPP!
its an experience. and a great one infact ;)
THEN I WENT TO PEACEHAVEN.
peacehaven.. just by knowing that that's the venue, you just know that its a so so camp.
not because of the committee or anything. but its because of the rules they have there. its kinda strict. so i think.. if that's the venue again for next year, i am not going! heheh :p
yeahhh, i think this is it.. im getting bored of myself. so i'm gonna go watch another movie or eat... im not sure which one to pick o.o :O
au revoir.
Monday, April 4, 2011
yesterday
Hey yo! :D
How is everybody?
I’m crappy, I feel like shit. I’m fine, if you’re wondering.
Yesterday I went to Seafield’s Interact IU. “What is that?” you ask. I don’t really know how to explain, so I’ll just try to explain as best as I could, okay? :D hmmm, its this day where people gather and they learn about a lil’ something about a country, interact with people , makan and watch performances.
That’s the best I could come up with. Sorry.
So yeah, I went. And to be brutally honest, it was really boring. I’m not sure about how the others feel about it though. But to me I kinda found it dead. The audience was dead and I was practically dying in there. The body heat was so hot I had to fan myself, and you know what. There’s probably more than 10 air conditioners in there.
There was a Norwegian woman who came. She’s some first lady of something. I didn’t really listen to anything she said. she wore some funny outfit which I suppose is a Norwegian outfit. With that outfit, I wouldn’t be surprise if she pulled out a bagpipe and starts blowing her guts into it. But oh well, no bagpipes.
The performance, if you ask me was a lil’ boring. I didn’t get the sketch at all. I’m sorry guys, but I just really don’t know what were you all doing up there with the cardboard boat and blue cloth. Shawn Lee was awesome though, the one that beatbox-ed. But other than that, I didn’t really bother. I was too engrossed in the game of Angry Birds and Bounce.
Seeing my friends there really brought back some feelings that I have abandoned this few months. They all look freaking gorgeous/handsome in their little semi-formal outfit. Goshh, I miss them. All of them are really tall now, I feel so midget-ish next to them! aaaaah, I wanna see them more often! I didn’t get pictures with them though :’( I left my camera in Cheng’s house. Gosh. Sometimes Im just so smart .__.
The food was okay only laa, Nothing really special. And the big prawn tasted a bit funny.
Yeahhhh, Nothing much to say about that.
I guess that sums up the whole day yesterday. See, nothing much right? Booo. My Rm30!
Rally’s coming up! Who’s with me?
4.4.2011
How is everybody?
Yesterday I went to Seafield’s Interact IU. “What is that?” you ask. I don’t really know how to explain, so I’ll just try to explain as best as I could, okay? :D hmmm, its this day where people gather and they learn about a lil’ something about a country, interact with people , makan and watch performances.
That’s the best I could come up with. Sorry.
So yeah, I went. And to be brutally honest, it was really boring. I’m not sure about how the others feel about it though. But to me I kinda found it dead. The audience was dead and I was practically dying in there. The body heat was so hot I had to fan myself, and you know what. There’s probably more than 10 air conditioners in there.
There was a Norwegian woman who came. She’s some first lady of something. I didn’t really listen to anything she said. she wore some funny outfit which I suppose is a Norwegian outfit. With that outfit, I wouldn’t be surprise if she pulled out a bagpipe and starts blowing her guts into it. But oh well, no bagpipes.
The performance, if you ask me was a lil’ boring. I didn’t get the sketch at all. I’m sorry guys, but I just really don’t know what were you all doing up there with the cardboard boat and blue cloth. Shawn Lee was awesome though, the one that beatbox-ed. But other than that, I didn’t really bother. I was too engrossed in the game of Angry Birds and Bounce.
Seeing my friends there really brought back some feelings that I have abandoned this few months. They all look freaking gorgeous/handsome in their little semi-formal outfit. Goshh, I miss them. All of them are really tall now, I feel so midget-ish next to them! aaaaah, I wanna see them more often! I didn’t get pictures with them though :’( I left my camera in Cheng’s house. Gosh. Sometimes Im just so smart .__.
The food was okay only laa, Nothing really special. And the big prawn tasted a bit funny.
Yeahhhh, Nothing much to say about that.
I guess that sums up the whole day yesterday. See, nothing much right? Booo. My Rm30!
Rally’s coming up! Who’s with me?
4.4.2011
when i see my face.....
when you look in the mirror, what do you see? some one gorgeous, someone confident, someone beautiful.
i see a monster.
(its probably because Brian's behind me. hah, im joking)
Mornings when i wake up finding a big fat, red, glowing pimple right on my cheek can really screw up my whole day.
you probably could play 'connect the zit' and find a shape of an.. elephant! .___.
there's mornings when i wake up and think "not bad" but you know what, i want to be MORE than not bad.
im not striving for perfection. but you know.. im striving for NORMAL.
this is probably how it goes every morning : hmmm, i could lose some fats here. ohmygosh! why my leg so shortt :( garhhhh, another pimple. crap, should i shape my eyebrows? ok, today is a bad hairday. ==
wanna know something? i hate looking at my reflection.
i do it in my room la, but when im in a public toilet or places with mirror, i try not to look.
the fear of shattering the image i have of me hits me hard every time I’m near a mirror.
you'd probably think "oh, this is what happen to every teenage girl, the self conscious stuff"
maybe it does happen to every teenager. But how can the other girls fake it so well then?
how can they like EVERYTHING about themselves. when i only like my.. eyes. o.o
In facebook, when people say "oh, you're so pretty" to a not-so-pretty-person i don't even think they meant it. they're probably saying that out of curtesy. and then there's that sampat girls who would say "no, you're prettier" (oh c'mon! if you don't mean it, don't say it.) and the battle of who's prettier start. and that sampat girl would feel pretty, cause the other girls say she pretty mahh! and then i don't know how la. she becomes prettier. AND THEN! i like her pictures 'cause she pretty mahh .______. hmmm.
LOL. i'm not so sure of where im going with this. but yeahhh.
there's a saying that says : its the personality that attracts the crowd
oh really? 'cause you know what? Guys are all judgmental. they see you and if you look HOT, they would want to be your friend, and probably make you their GF, but if you're not, you have to be funny or smart or good at sports to even attract them to talk to you. I mean, girls are not so different, okay, so both females and males are judgmental. oh mannnnnnn.
what would happen to all the ugly people like me? :'(
i shall find a cave to live in now. .__.
KL got caves ah?
2.4.2011
i see a monster.
(its probably because Brian's behind me. hah, im joking)
Mornings when i wake up finding a big fat, red, glowing pimple right on my cheek can really screw up my whole day.
you probably could play 'connect the zit' and find a shape of an.. elephant! .___.
there's mornings when i wake up and think "not bad" but you know what, i want to be MORE than not bad.
im not striving for perfection. but you know.. im striving for NORMAL.
this is probably how it goes every morning : hmmm, i could lose some fats here. ohmygosh! why my leg so shortt :( garhhhh, another pimple. crap, should i shape my eyebrows? ok, today is a bad hairday. ==
wanna know something? i hate looking at my reflection.
i do it in my room la, but when im in a public toilet or places with mirror, i try not to look.
the fear of shattering the image i have of me hits me hard every time I’m near a mirror.
you'd probably think "oh, this is what happen to every teenage girl, the self conscious stuff"
maybe it does happen to every teenager. But how can the other girls fake it so well then?
how can they like EVERYTHING about themselves. when i only like my.. eyes. o.o
In facebook, when people say "oh, you're so pretty" to a not-so-pretty-person i don't even think they meant it. they're probably saying that out of curtesy. and then there's that sampat girls who would say "no, you're prettier" (oh c'mon! if you don't mean it, don't say it.) and the battle of who's prettier start. and that sampat girl would feel pretty, cause the other girls say she pretty mahh! and then i don't know how la. she becomes prettier. AND THEN! i like her pictures 'cause she pretty mahh .______. hmmm.
LOL. i'm not so sure of where im going with this. but yeahhh.
there's a saying that says : its the personality that attracts the crowd
oh really? 'cause you know what? Guys are all judgmental. they see you and if you look HOT, they would want to be your friend, and probably make you their GF, but if you're not, you have to be funny or smart or good at sports to even attract them to talk to you. I mean, girls are not so different, okay, so both females and males are judgmental. oh mannnnnnn.
what would happen to all the ugly people like me? :'(
i shall find a cave to live in now. .__.
KL got caves ah?
2.4.2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
still under renovation
here to say hello.
so that blog wouldnt be so .. dead.
yeah.
p/s : i still can't figure out the html for my header, help me. PLEASE.
so that blog wouldnt be so .. dead.
yeah.
p/s : i still can't figure out the html for my header, help me. PLEASE.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
under renovation!
garhhhhhh.
i know i know my blog is pretty screwed up now, but i don't know what to do!
with the stupid, unbelievable time limit that evil daddy had set, its impossible to do anything now!
its so hard to upload, blog, chat and facebook under 45 minutes! (thats not even 1 hour!) :( i wanna cry
and my layout look like shiat :( but i dont have time to edit. and im power-typing now.
evil parents, hmph.
i know i know my blog is pretty screwed up now, but i don't know what to do!
with the stupid, unbelievable time limit that evil daddy had set, its impossible to do anything now!
its so hard to upload, blog, chat and facebook under 45 minutes! (thats not even 1 hour!) :( i wanna cry
and my layout look like shiat :( but i dont have time to edit. and im power-typing now.
evil parents, hmph.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
was it you that spoke the word
hello there, earthlings :)
i realised that quiet people think a lot. like A LOT.
fact proven.
i sit by myself sometimes.
woahhhh, rare sight, I KNOW! :D
and my minds just go bananas, seriously!
i'll think about this then that then back to the start.
you see?
oh, during add maths class. a song came into my head.
it was so random
was it you that spoke the word ~
it was so loud. and i couldn't focus on what mr andrew was saying.
so i told myself "its okay, he doesnt know whats going on in my head, i'll be okay"
and THEN, he looked at me :O
omg, do teachers have like super powers?
cause that was super freakyy.
okay maybe its coincidence,
but im no believer in coincidence :)
coincidence is just another word for "things done by GOD anonymously" :)
yeah. THAT i believe :)
worship camp tomorrow!
see you there?
i need TEMAN, like real bad.
i dont wanna be alone.
yeah, i do have separation anxiety. but whats the suprise right, i got alot of things going on with me :D
but i AM who i AM :) <>
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
yeahhh :D
jeng jeng. i know my blog's kinda boring and dead and all.
so....
i've added spongebob! :D
now, happy chinese new year! :D happy eating! :D
and happy shopping! :D
love, clarissa :D
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