and she goes yada yada yada D:

i haven't post anything since last year o.o

so.. i've shifted school.

everyone's like : oh how's your new school? is it nice? got miss me?

my answer would be : okays la :) okay la. and yeah

but you know what? i freaking miss seafieldians, i miss calling myself a seafieldian! and it IS nice there , but i cant help wishing it was a lil' like seafield. the school itself is okay, but when you're in MY situation, its a different ball game.

im not complaining, its just. i don't feel like i belong there. the friends i made there are GREAT. don't get me wrong, they're awesome. totally people i could see myself hanging out with in the next 4 or 5 years to come

but there's some of them, that just stay away from me. they don't talk to me. they just avoid me. and why? because of HIM. ish.

whyy? i don't understand. everyone seems okay with grace! and so different with me. whyyyy?

and also! all those expectations. i do sleep late, i do pass up my homework late, i do fail some exams, i do ponteng, im just normal. like every freaking student. i do get in trouble in school. i suck in history although he teaches history.

im like you.

yes, i do cry myself to sleep. but can you blame me?

back there i use to have friends everywhere, never alone. have a group of girls that's always around me. i used to love staying back after school, but now its suckish. i just sit there and just stare at people.

i just can't let go of the past. D; i know its a bad thing. but i cant help itt ! DD; shoot me.

i need to go pee. bye.